i love PINK. sue me.

to you, whom i have to stupidly fall for and to you, who broke my heart:

so she's a nick model?? so the girl you *ahem* rather have, than me is a nick model?? she's already a:

class prez
possible relative (if not daughter) of this person (cant tell)
good student
"good" dancer
socceristah (my word)
popular person
rich kid..

and know a nick model????? geez.. how much of a loser can i get?? i am not a clas prez (though i have been a vp in gradeschool), not a relative of someone not unknown(?), an average student, N0T a good dancer definately! not a soccer player (though i am a swimmer)! and not THAT popular (though she isnt THAT popular herself).. now she's a nick model??? doing this stint for nick? her face is shown on tv?? she's not even THAT pretty!! she's tall and all but not that drop dead gorgeous..of course the face doesnt always matter, but hell, she's on tv!! like i have been wanting to do a vtr for days.. (my moms friend said that i should do a vtr.. try lang.. i wanna be on a commercial, not because of the popularity or he fact that your face is gonna be splatered in front of the boob tube and possibly billboards and magazines too, i care for the money beybeh..yeah.. i am greedy.. not bragging here) talk about overpowering me.. sorry i am not like her.. arghh!! and the fact that we have the same school and that his brother studies at ateneo and i get to see her everyday is NOT helping!!!
really now..talk about overpowering me..

arghh!! frustrating!! she's almost perfect!! and i envy her.. and i hate being jealous of her i dont wanna envy her....

love is very shitty sometimes!

i was super scared i almost peed my pants (considering that i have my period today..yuck!) i was covering my eyes for like 3/4 of the time throughout the movie.. feng shui is WAY WAY WAY too scary.. i dont know whats wrong with me, i like to watch horror films but i'd end up covering my eyes, getting really freaked out, and nervous on what's around the corner.. feng shui was super freaky and surprising.. especially during the "billy-eating-dinner-at joy's-house-and-then-someone's-dead-face-suddenly-pops-out-of-nowhere" , "joy-checking-on-kids-and-the-dead-man-suddenly-passes-by-the-kids'-room-window-doing-his-nightly-"passing"-obviously-floating" and "joy-breaks-the-door-thing-and-shows-her-friend-and-kids-then-friend-and-kids-tell-her-that-they're-already-dead-transforming-into-decayed-things" parts.. of course, my eyes were closed during those parts.. i must end now.. getting goosebumps..

body shop had a sale!! their lip and cheek tint which originally costs 400+ now costs 250!! my gash! half off!! the annoying thing is, i have no more money so i wasnt able to buy one!! huhuhuhu..

finished reading princess diaries! good book.. now on the search for "highs and lows of being mia" also by meg cabot.. im excited!

bought bach cd already..and total girl mag.. should stop buying that magazine! theyre for kids! there wasnt any candy mag yet kaya i bought total girl..heehee.. ü

there's this guy in friendster, who like posted his thing for 1000256320 times!! how inconsiderate!! duh.. like his message is so important.. annoying!! sobrang 4 pages ng bulletin board puro post nia.. i dont even know him.. i wonder how he became my friend? prolly during the "the friendster days"

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things to i wanna buy (but unfortunately dont have the money to spend it on) :

-MUSIC-
- parokya ni edgar inuman sessions
- akafellas

-MAKEUP-
- smashbox lippie in fire
- bloom bronzer (for that i-just-came-from-the-beach look)
- body shop lip and cheek tint (im running low on it..they were on sale!! half off!! only P250! but like i said.. im broke..)
- traffic jam blue nail polish

-CLOTHES/SHOES-
- highcut chucks in pink, red, green or black
- havaianas flip flops (just one pair of havaianas and i'll be the happiest girl in the world! havaianas are s0o0o0o expensive!)
- pink, and orange nike baller id (better call my sister)
- ballet flats
- the pink butterfly off shoulder top i saw at glorietta yesterday
- lots and lots of funky rockstar tees
- 2 pairs of comfy, flared jeans
- lime green lacoste shirt that costs a whopping P3000 grand.. (obviously, i couldnt afford it..)

-BOOKS-
- the highs and lows of being mia- meg cabot
- lovely bones- alice sebold
- Confessions of an Heiress: A tongue-in-chic peek behind the pose- Paris Hilton
- Rosemary's Baby- Ira Levin
-Harry Potter and the Half Bood Prince- JK Rowling
- candy mag

-NOT SO IMPT. WISH LIST-

-BOOKS-
- paris hilton: the naked truth- george mair
- the tinkerbell hilton diaries- tinkerbell hilton

NOTE: i am not a paris hilton fanatic-slash-wannabe..i judge books by their covers and it just happens that the covers of the books above looks pretty interesting.. so thats all.. i just like paris&nicky hilton.. not that i adore them or anything, theyre just ok for me.. still on the search for new things for my wish list! *no.. bad idea.. im broke! how can i buy all of those stuff?! stop searching!*

it has been a while since i last posted and its because of our exams (bio was s0o0o0o0o0o0o0 hard!! math was okay and i hope i passed in order to pull my grade, i saw my cL, english and filipino paper already, i passed all three! i got a 93 in filipino! wahaha.) and the yfc youth camp at school..

the youth camp was super duper fun!! i was with kim, krizia, vicky, elphie.. marga, agatha, elphie and aj were there too.. i met new people.. and had a crush on one of the speakers (kuya christian! teehee..).. hahaha.. he was cute kasi.. kuya linus and tonico (sp) were sooooo good playing the guitar.. lahat ata ng songs kaya! kuya angelo, otat and another kuya whose name i forgot were sooo funny during enight!! kuya pao and kuya josh were also there..

we slept sa physics lab, at first sobrang takot kame! kasi wala lng..scared tas my earthquake pa before.. the next night.. sobrang sarap na ng tulog namin.. we woke up at around 6.30 and our call time was 7.00..so nagmadali kame sa bathroom.. ang haba ng line! tas there was this one girl who took so long taking a bath!! consideration nman db?! oh well..

the best thing about the camp except for meeting new fab fab people and listening to the inspiring talks, is that i felt enlightened, i felt good.. i really felt God.. and i know i have grown closer to God.. during the baptism, when the facilitators (ate dang, krizia, ken, ate chieri, elphie and lena) were praying over me i really felt good even though i was crying.. i felt na part na ko ng yfc.. na this is my family in God.. sobrang na feel ko yung acceptance and care nila.. they were so warm.. I LOVE YFC!!

"i ain't no GODESS, just a PRINCESS in my KING'S heaven"

outfit: "im am BEA_utiful" in front and "rock on" at the back shirt (ah! the wonders of a squegee and silk screen! silk screen printing!), purple shorts that i love to bits and my tsinelas

hair: up in the usual messy way

mood: i really dont know


good news: were going to have paella, my favorite-st food in the world on saturday!
bad news: i will have to cook.. so the outcome of the "good news" entirely depends on the bad news..

thank God its friday tomorrow!

our interaction with II-C is next tues na! yahoo! kim and i believe that our soulmates are both in II-C.. we predicted their names would be john michael and francis/richie respectively.. haha..

<--- this smiley is really cute!

i immersed myself in self pity today.. for having zero HTML IQ.. (well i know a teeny bit ü)

i edited my friendster profile.. add meeeh! dexslab_onse11@yahoo.com

the eadd given above was "produced" when i was in grade5..im still a kid.. im am too lazy to change it because once i do, i will have to inform everyone and that is quite a job..

we had this a activity in fil, were we had to fill in the sentence: "Gusto ko (text here) eh!" i realized how materialistic i am.. teehee.. but really now.. i do NEED a new phone.. BADLY need one! (sponsors are welcome! i accept cash or check..oh and all major credit cards are honored too)

krizia's gonna burn parokya inuman sessions for me! oh yeah!

i left the "bea ganda (2-5)" screen saver on in my computer in the computer room.. oh no!

in mtv spotted, there's this guy he was like "and now here is the usher's let it burn wala lng..

my brothers acting all weird and stuff.. (he's reading this now)
and i told you he's the adopted one.. jokeee brother! ilabshu! ü (he's still reading this)


seriously, i do love my brother to bits!! (he's not reading this now, promise!)
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our interaction withthe ateneo people is not until tues.. so i asked my friends from other sections how was their interaction.. they all had the same answers: boring and panget.. diane's class gave them a stuffed pucca doll.. they gave the guys a cd.. hell?! pucca doll?! i am now traumatized.. i am now expecting the worst.. Help me God!! PLease may ii-c be a good section!!

the interaction was F-U-N!! i had a really great time! and to think that i was expecting the worst.. my partner was super nice and gentleman-ly!! basta i really had a great time! :D we gave them a "certified ii-5 (insert name here) cutie" pin.. they gave us picture frames.. not bad..(for me).. details later.. ü i cant think!!

im am sooo freakin frustrated.. i went to greenhills and and there were all this gorgeous vintage tops worth php200 bucks only.. the sad part is i didint get to buy any!! not one single top! ang babaw ko i know.. pero it was just so damn frustrating! hmph!

anyhoo.. i am so mataray today! nakakaasar!

i wanna rant but i cant..

damn frustrating!

maybe i should blog later..

my sister's birthday was last thursday and she decided to treat us at burgoo rockwell, she also gave me my pink glow in dark baller id already!.. it was my first time eating at burgoo and the food was good.. i was with my dad, hans, ate anette (my sis) and ate mia (sisters frend)..

then, we decided to watch a movie which starts at 3pm.. since we finished eating early, we've got time to burn, we roamed around the insanely ice cold mall, considering that i was still drinking a strawberries and cream frap (which tastes a tad too sweet but neverthelles, tastes yummy! but i still think its still expensive at php140 for a venti (medium)!)

i tried on some vintage tees (im into vintage tees nowadays) at marks and spencer, but unfortunately, wasnt able to buy some, i was having 2nd thoughts on buying this shirt, im not really really into it and it does cost php1450, so i reluctantly told my dad that i dont feel the shirt..

at around 2.50 we headed to the cinemas.. white chicks is funny!! i dont care what movie critics say, but i still think white chicks is funny .. the people there have the loveliest outfits! super super pretty dresses! the sweet valley tv series star was also there..

for some totally unrelated but good news: i passed math! whopee!! i thank GOD for everything!! for being soo nice to me! thank you po LORD GOD!

and that ends my day.. now im here..staring at the computer screen..chatting with ii-5 and ii-c people..

oh wait.. my crush just pm-ed me! haha!

finally!! my, our very very much awaited sem break is finally here!! 5 days (corny noh?! but beggars cant be choosers..) of pure, unadulterated hapiness!! more internet-slash-blogging time! recently, i have been addicted to ym.. ii-5 and ii-c people always have a conference each and every day (grammar check?!).. i find it both good and bad for me.. good because my friendster (not to mention my testi list) and ym lists are now growing again.. bad because i get so caught up chatting with people that i neglect my schoolwork.. speaking of schoolwork! i passed my math!! yahoo!! my problem now, is maintaining my grade..oh well..its just the start of the quarter.. we only had 2quizzes and 1 long test.. tons of quizzes, 1 more long test and an exam still to come! I WILL MAINTAIN, IF NOT IMPROVE MY MATH GRADE!! i'm serious..

DEAD SERIOUS.

moving on, my friends are at robinsons place now. as in NOW.. prolly watching a movie or looking for a halloween costume..im supposed to come with them, but unfortunately, my dear darling parents didnt allow me (as if rp is a thousand miles away?! rp is like 10 minutes away from our house!).. were also supposed to go trick or treating at valle verde this sunday (c/o of missy), -reason why my friends are picking out costumes- i really really hope my dear darling parents would allow me to go trick or treating! if ever, ill be wearing all white, my hair all messy and crumpled (as if it already isnt) and im gonna be holding a candle..oh and maybe some "dead" makeup wouldnt hurt too! im excited!

so im asking EVERYONE to please pray for me to be allowed to go to valle! also pray that my parents wouldnt get mad at my grades! please! also pray for me to maintain my math grade! i will work extra hard for this and i WILL MAINTAIN MY MATH GRADE!

to macky: thankx so much for tagging! nice to know someone really reads my blog.. my "ym addiction" is the cause of my non-updation..haha..

***word of the day: updation..

hello kay aj, nix or kahit sinong 2-5 na ka chat ko na binabasa toh ngaun! i love you guys!

tagal magonline ng ii-5 at ii-c..

deymn! tabulas disabled the tagboard!

today, my mom and lola went to quiapo.. i tagged along thinking quiapo was like greenhills.. with all those tiangge's selling pretty clother, accesesories etcetera.. boy, was i wrong.. quiapo is a place filled with vendors selling stuff, from vegetables/fruits, cooked ulam plates, glasses, trinkets to pirated dvd's, soft ice cream pre-mixes, margarine contained in a huge balde, pots, pans, flowers and various other thingamajiggies.. quiapo is mainly a "melting pot" of different goods and products.. i didnt really relish the experience.. there were a lot of people, the air isnt really uhhhh.. fresh.., the trip there and back again (if you took one of the buses) took like an hour!! stuck inside a not-so-comfortable bus isnt really a treat for me.. and the most disappointing part for me is that i didnt get to do some real hardcore shopping!! i was expecting quiapo to really be like greenhills.. so naive bea!

oh well..at least a new experience..